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Manoj Bajpayee says that “I thought of committing suicide”


Leading Indian actor Manoj Bajpayee says he thought of committing suicide but his friends stopped him from committing suicide.

According to Indian media reports, since the suicide of Indian actor Sushant Singh Rajput in recent days, there has been a discussion in the industry on suicide due to nepotism and depression. Actor Manoj Bajpayee from the Indian state of Bihar has also made important revelations regarding his suicide.

A photo of Manoj Bajpayee has been shared on an Instagram and video sharing app called ‘official humans of bombay’ and a caption has been written by him saying that I am the son of a farmer, my upbringing in Bihar. Happened in a village, we are five siblings. We have lived a very simple life, but we still had to go to the theater whenever we went to the city.

Manoj Bajpayee said that he was a big fan of Amitabh Bachchan since childhood and wanted to be like him. At the age of 9, I realized that acting was my goal, but I couldn’t think of becoming an actor because I didn’t have the money to study.


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“I’m a farmer’s son; I grew up in a village in Bihar with 5 siblings–we went to a hut school. We led a simple life, but whenever we went to the city, we’d go to the theatre. I was a Bachchan fan & wanted to be like him. At 9, I knew acting was my destiny. But I couldn’t afford to dream & continued my studies. Still, my mind refused to focus on anything else, so at 17, I left for DU. There, I did theatre but my family had no idea. Finally, I wrote a letter to dad–he wasn’t angry & even sent me Rs.200 to cover my fees! People back home called me ‘good for nothing’ but I turned a blind eye. I was an outsider, trying to fit in. So, I taught myself English & Hindi–Bhojpuri was a big part of how I spoke. I then applied to NSD, but was rejected thrice. I was close to committing suicide, so my friends would sleep next to me & not leave me alone. They kept me going until I was accepted. That year, I was at a chai shop when Tigmanshu came looking for me on his khatara scooter–Shekhar Kapur wanted to cast me in Bandit Queen! So I felt I was ready & moved to Mumbai. Initially, it was tough–I rented a chawl with 5 friends & looked for work, but got no roles. Once, an AD tore my photo & I’ve lost 3 projects in a day. I was even told to ‘get out’ after my 1st shot. I didn’t fit the ideal ‘hero’ face–so they thought I’d never make it to the big screen. All the while, I struggled to make rent & at times even a vada pav was costly. But the hunger in my stomach couldn’t dissuade my hunger to succeed. After 4 years of struggle, I got a role in Mahesh Bhatt’s TV series. I got Rs.1500 per episode–my first steady income. My work was noticed & I was offered my first Bollywood film & soon, I got my big break with ‘Satya’. That’s when the awards rolled in. I bought my first house & knew…I was here to stay. 67 films later, here I am. That’s the thing about dreams–when it comes to turning them into reality, the hardships don’t matter. What matters is the belief of that 9-year-old Bihari boy & nothing else.” — HOB with @sonylivindia brings to you the story of Manoj Bajpayee, whose life has come full circle. To watch his award winning performance in Bhonsle, click on the link in bio!

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“I worked in the theater at the age of 17 but my family did not know about it. Finally I wrote a letter to my father and asked him for Rs. 200 for my fee which he paid me,” he said. Gave and did not get angry. After which he learned English and Hindi so that he could work in films.

Manoj Bajpayee further said that I came from outside the industry and was trying to fit in here. During this time, when I tried to enter the National School of Drama, I was rejected 3 times, after which I committed suicide. At that time, my friends supported me a lot.

“My friends slept with me, never left me alone to do anything, they stayed with me until I was accepted into the industry,” he said.

The actor said that after 4 years of hard work, I got a job in a TV serial of Mahesh Butt, for which I got Rs. 1599 for one installment. After which he got his first Bollywood film ‘Satya’ after which I made 67  more films and today I am here.

On kinship, Manoj Bajpayee said that kinship will always remain and my very existence in Bollywood is a challenge to kinship.

Remember that actor Manoj Bajpayee is one of the best actors in Bollywood who has made a name for himself in the industry thanks to his acting.

Manoj Bajpayee has had successful films like ‘Satya’, ‘Gang of Wasseypur’ and ‘Aligarh’ in his career and so far he has won two National Film Awards and other film awards.

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